Note: This is a copy of an e-mail I sent to my friends and family. I got an overwhelming positive response from them, so I decided to post it here for everyone to enjoy.
This past Monday morning, I fulfilled a promise I kind of made to myself about a year ago. I registered for the Ironman Wisconsin. At 7 AM on September 11, 2005, I will begin swimming 2.4 miles, followed by biking 112 miles, and finish running 26.2 miles. This will be no small feat. I will be training extensively over the next year to prepare my body for both the physical and mental test that lies ahead. I am well on my way with a new road bike, the shedding of 19 pounds (with more to go), and most of all, the encouragement and support of Kris. I've been running and biking, and swimming is not far behind.
I'm sure you're asking yourself, "WHY?" For the past three years, Kris & I have volunteered at the Finish Line (and yes, it deserves capital letters) of the Ironman. It leaves you nothing short of awestruck and inspired to see so many people overcome the stress of continuously moving their bodies for nearly 17 hours. After the first year, I thought to myself, "I could do this." but never followed through. Last year, after the race I laid out a plan in my head to lose weight and compete in sprint triathlons this year to see if the Ironman was doable. Well, the weight never came off, and the sprint triathlons were forgotten. Now that the weight is gone, different opportunities present themselves. One of which was the Ironman.
But there's something more. I can't put a finger on it, but there is something deep down that has been nagging at me to go through with it. There's an overwhelming emotional desire to finish. To turn the last corner on the run, buoyed by the cheers of thousands lining that final stretch, would be so cool, I can't even begin to tell you what that would mean to me. I want to cross The Line so bad. But there's this 140.6 miles that have to be completed before that last turn. The past year has been spent questioning that desire, wondering if the pain will be worth it. The debate in my head kept leading back to a memory my brother Mike and I had a long time ago.
One summer night, Mike and I biked to the gas station, loaded up on candy and ended up in a field where he said he would come "to chill." I must have been down in the dumps, because we discussed a lot of different motivational things. There's one quote he said that sticks with me, "There is always a first in everything you do." It's that simple. No matter what you do, you have to suck it up, develop the courage and do it the first time.
I want to cross The Line and be an Ironman, but I have to go through a lot of pain to get there. That's what I have to do for the first time. I have to push my body for longer than it's ever been pushed. Take it to limits that it has never seen. That's what's been holding me back. By pledging to train and forking over a serious chunk of change, I hope that it will hold me back no more.
The next year promises to be a roller coaster of emotion. Kris has taken on the role of emotional support and training partner. She will also be coordinating support efforts during the year and especially for the race next September. My efforts will be logged often on my workout blog. I will post updates my training, weight loss, and emotions that the next year holds.